War

As a first year student at Allegheny College, I am required to take a Freshmen Seminar, or FS this semester. Mine is called "Film & Philosophy." So far, we have read journals by Plato, Heidegger and Nietzsche, watched multiple movies including The Truman Show and The Thin Red Line, and have had many in-class discussions focussing on film, philosophy, and the human condition in general. Of all the texts we have studied, however, The Thin Red Line hit me the hardest. Directed by Terrence Malick, this movie illustrates the WWII Battle of Guadacanal... but this is no typical war film. (I truly believe that this may be one of the greatest war films of all time, although I cannot profess to be any sort of expert on the matter.) In response to The Thin Red Line, my professors requested that we answer a question and post our answers onto a website forum. The question asked, simply: "Regarding the film, The Thin Red Line, what did reviewers miss?" I would like to share with you my answer:

"Generally highly rated, The Thin Red Line, directed by Terrence Malick, is called poetic, unique and beautiful, garnering praise for its exquisite cinematography and haunting soundtrack. Reviewers fail, however, to understand or appreciate the magnitude of the film's message. Roger Ebert of The Chicago Sun Times states, "The movie's schizophrenia keeps it from greatness (this film has no firm idea of what it is about)." In Ebert's criticism of The Thin Red Line, he claims that "schizophrenia" inhibits the film. Contrastingly, I believe that this quality of uncertainness is actually what makes this film great. The Thin Red Line begins by focussing in on two AWOL soldiers living in an idyllic island society, and from there jumps around in time between battle scenes, memories, past, and future events. Additionally, throughout the film, the audience is allowed into the soldiers' heads to hear their thoughts: "This great evil, where does it come from...love, where does it come from?" The audience is sort of thrown into the film, unsure of who the disembodied thoughts belong to, what the ultimate objective of the battle in hills is, or even what the opposing side looks like; in fact, the face of the enemy is not even shown until halfway through this three hour film. These elements, combined with seemingly haphazard nature shots, despite reviewers' opinions, are not in fact random, but act together to achieve a particular purpose: To mimic the weight, confusion and despair felt by the soldiers and to project those feelings onto the audience, which it accomplishes disturbingly well. In one scene for instance, the camera takes the point of view of a soldier, so the audience sees the battle through the soldier's eyes, as he, the audience, is about to kill his enemy. Aside from the disembodied narrating voices, this film is shockingly real. There is no illusion, no happy ending, and no ultimate objective except violence, just as with war. However, this film is not exclusively striving to illustrate the evils of war, nor is it solely using war as a metaphor for the human condition, at large. It is doing both."

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Coffee

Last week, I took a long 9-hour journey by train and bus to San Francisco to visit my friends from camp. There, I rode in the Westin St. Francis glass elevator, visited City Lights Books (amazing!), toured a wax museum, took more modes of transportation then I even knew existed, and ultimately, had a great experience. The colorful old buildings, shiny trolly cars, and fashionable hipsters are only a few of the reasons why San Francisco is my favorite city. However, the majesty of the city couldn't prevent me from noticing the surprisingly large number of homeless people in San Francisco: sleeping bags on the streets, signs asking for money, or help, or beer, backpacks left momentarily while their owners wander, and hungry dogs tied to street lamps. One evening, while on Haight Street, my friend and I passed a man who couldn't have been older than 25. He was sitting on the sidewalk with a guitar on his left, a sign asking for money or a cup of coffee on his right, and a book in his hand. As we passed, I got that gut-wrenching feeling of guilt and wishfulness that I could help. I was wearing a sweater and a coat and I was freezing, I couldn't even imagine how much colder the air must have felt to him, in ragged clothes desperately in need of a washing. I took a look at my friend and could tell that she was thinking the same thing. Wordlessly, it was decided that we would both chip in and buy him a large mocha latte... extra hot. After stopping in a small cafe, we walked quickly back to the spot where the man had been sitting, hoping that he would still be there. He was! We walked up and said hello and I handed him the cup. He looked down at us with a look of shock on his face, as if it was the first time in a while that someone had showed him some kindness. He then said, "Thank you... I just got this guitar; I'm really happy about it," and smiled. After chatting for a minute or two, my friend and I left and continued to look around, stopping at a few stores and eventually turned around to catch the train back to her house. On the way, we walked past the man again. He was now quietly strumming his guitar with our coffee cup in front of him, with a smile on his face. I guess what I took from this experience, was the impact that a bit of humanity can have on someone else's day, or life. Although the homeless man's sign asked for a cup of coffee, all he really wanted was someone to recognize him, to treat him like a human being, to maybe give him a smile, instead of passing him by. I think that is all anyone wants, really... to be shown some kindness.

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Last year, I went to Raphael House in San Francisco, a homeless shelter for families. I am part of a volunteer group that raises funds for homeless children to buy school clothes as well as awareness in the community. We watched a video at the Raphael House compiled of clips showing the lives of homeless children and the ways they interpret and respond to their situations. One boy of eleven compared his life to a game of chess; he said "one wrong move and you could lose everything," deep thought for a fourth grader. He spoke about how he has been homeless for the last five years. That's almost half his life. I can only imagine how transferring between schools, moving around, and not knowing where his next meal would come from could affect a person. His attitude, as well as those of the other children, was optimistic and strong. When faced with hardships, we can act in countless ways, a majority of them being not beneficial, or even ruinous. This young boy has somehow found a way to adapt to his family's lifestyle, with strength and much intellect. While most look down upon the homeless, or anyone out of place in society, I can only aspire to have character such as this kid.

Rain

As I sat in the passenger seat of my boyfriend's car this weekend, I asked why he wasn't using the windshield wipers. He told me he was thinking about the way our brains are able to see past these droplets of water and complete an image, despite our only seeing a percentage of the scene. We often take for granted these incredible abilities, as well as others that exist within us. People are quick to wipe away their talents, for whatever reason, may it be that others won't approve or that they just don't consider them to be special, and this is truly unfortunate. If we all noticed something about ourselves, and held on to it, and used a talent unique only to us in order to create a stronger character or benefit another person, we would all be in a better place. If we noticed the things we tend to ignore, we could appreciate life that much more.

Sand Art

It's incredible, the emotions we can evoke through art. It's equally incredible that one can be so passionate in creating it. In this video, a woman creates piece after piece using only sand. She has disciplined herself in timing and is completely involved in her work, while she throws sand with great emotion. It is inspiring to see such a talented woman being properly appreciated by a teary eyed audience. She controls their feelings with every movement of her hand and uses that power to create a beautiful moment. In relation to Heart of Darkness, this is what some of us are capable of, under the right circumstances.

In Reflection of the Quotation, "Become who you are":

We are born as infants, canvases,
with a lack of character or personality.
Without morals, values, or individuality,
we step into the world with paths to choose.
We decide who we are, through trial and error,
and we become who we are
through determination and drive.
It's not easy creating yourself,
but you certainly must try,
or else someone will do it for you.

Book

I recently heard on the radio, an author speaking about his latest book. He said that when he began, he couldn't write a novel, but he could write one page a day. This is what life is about. We often try to expect everything to happen automatically, especially in our "balloon generation" as described by Urban Dictionary as the generation who "expects awards and balloons for minimal amounts of work," as well as with growing technology to increase the efficiency of all possible. We try to accomplish huge tasks without patience, and we fail to see the option of doing so one "page" at a time. If life were a book, it is important to acknowledge every little word and letter, for some day the book will end, and we'll have just our moments to look back on.